So I've been thinking about a lot lately and meaning to write it all down but I just never have the motivation at the end of the day, so perhaps if I have a blog I can have more drive to keep it updated. I should probably start off by saying that the title for this blog comes from a song sung by Schuyler Fisk called From Where I'm Standing. You should probably just look her up, she's absolutely amazing and she's my favorite.
Next is my motivation to do anything beyond school work or cleaning my apartment. After spending a semester in Ireland I was a bit concerned about my productivity coming back, but I've been quite fine with it. The problem with my motivation comes in when trying to invest myself back into relationships with my friends and family. I'm trying to keep a running list of people I need to contact or see. Hopefully I'll have it down to an art soon, but right now it's kind of a mess. These things take time and emotional investment, which is why throwing myself into work is just so much easier at the moment. Work has become my distraction from the fact that I'm no longer in Dublin, no longer a stone's throw from mainland Europe, no longer across the pond. What I really need to do is take the piece of my heart that I left over there, get it back, and give it to those around me. I returned a phone call from four days ago today and I arranged lunch with another friend who has been trying to hang out with me for a week and a half now. For now consider it a work in progress.
A lot has been going on lately and in the midst of it all my Economic Development class sticks out the most. I just can't help but think about the rest of the world and how blessed I am to be where I am. People try to justify the reason for why we have life so good and others don't, I really feel like it's just luck of the draw. I've decided that no one gets what they deserve in life. No one deserves to be born into a developed country. No one deserves to be born into an underdeveloped country, but most of the world is. I feel like it's part of my duty to do something to help those out who are less fortunate. I've briefly, and I mean briefly, looked into the Peace Corps, not sure about it yet but I feel like it could be a viable option post graduation. Until then I'll just have to keep reading The Economist and focus a lot of energy on my project for Econ Dev which will focus on how the increase of enrolment in primary education in Sub-Saharan Africa would better their lives. Hopefully it'll turn out well and I'll be able to present it at the Economic Conference at Grove City College in June.
Well it's time to bake some cookies, finish laundry, and go to bed. Today was the one unproductive work day I've had since coming back, but I made some calls and sent some texts so I'm considering it productive in other ways.
Joslyn, You are doing just fine...your writings make me cry. I am so very proud of you, your accomplishments, and your drive. I was listening to Peter, Paul, and Mary today & thinking of you (of course) when Puff the Magic Dragon came on. You cried then because Jackie Paper had grown up...I think you've found that growing up isn't such a bad thing.
ReplyDeleteI also remember telling you several years ago that "you can't save the world"...I now take that back because if you want to...I'll bet you can!